I feel excited yet anxious - I think this will be the way every step of the way given what happened with our last pregnancy. It was at this scan last time around that we sadly found out that our baby's heart had stopped beating about 2 weeks prior.

I'm pretty much holding my breath until I hear the words 'and there is the heartbeat', when I breathe a sigh of relief and I feel Jay squeeze my hand to show his own sense of relief. He really is my strength in these moments - though I know he is just as scared as I am and the thought of last time haunts him just as it does me, but he never lets me see it and knows when I need to be distracted from thinking about it.

What we can see on the screen is truly amazing - so different from the last scan even though it was only 2 weeks ago. The Sonographer goes through lots of measuring - the baby's head, body, legs, arms, thighs, and even waistline! Unbelievable to think that everything is there now, just waiting to develop over the coming months.

I can't stop smiling at what I'm seeing in front of me. Jay's face just makes me beam more as he is amazed at the baby moving around, making it more difficult for the measurements to be taken - yup that would be our baby if it can't stay still for a minute! I think it has become more real to him in this moment :-). His smile says it all - seriously, I could melt right now :-) xx